December 7, 2009
Today I feel: pretty good, actually. I’ve been treating myself well these past few days and it definitely shows!
So I’m taking a short break from the blog since this is the dreaded finals season at NYU. Happliy, after the 15th I will be basically done, and free to work on Christmas gifts (hand-made is the way to go people, I’m telling you) and write my blog! Well, that and frolic around Christmastime New York. Until then, I have every hour of my next week-plus mapped out for me, and that does not include blogging. Hopefully it will also not include my Crohn’s flaring up because of the stress.
Just a quick anecdote (followed by an inspirational quote) before I leave you again. I was walking home from a party on Friday night with a friend when he said to me “okay, we’ve gotta get back quick so I can take a poop”. It was then that I remembered that though my guy friends have blessed me with the ability to talk openly about our poops, they have this strange aversion to pooping anywhere but in their own home. I have never had such qualms, because I developed Crohn’s before I developed the awareness of social taboos that would make me hold it in until I was at home. Today the issue is this: I either poop in your toilet or on your floor, which would you prefer? And besides, you must own air freshener. It’s a no brainer as far as I’m concerned. And yet, most “normal” people absolutely refuse to poop in other people’s bathrooms, or even in public restrooms. Get over it, people. And that is why Crohn’s has actually made me a more sane human being than the rest of them.
Which leads into my inspirational quote (which I wrote about in my NYLC application):
“Take pride in your pain; you are stronger than those who have none.”
-Lois Lowry, Gathering Blue
I read this in middle school, and will always remember it because I knew it was written for me. Don’t get me wrong, Lois Lowry isn’t my aunt or anything, but it’s people like me that she must have been thinking of when she wrote it. Yes, Crohn’s is a mostly negative experience, but one side effect is that you become proportionally strong, and I think it’s important to remind yourself of that once in a while.